Thursday, August 11, 2005

Wow, so it's almost been a full 30 days that I've been in Texas. I'd like to congratulate myself on having only one emotional breakdown! LOL. It came about 2 nights ago. I was talking with my mom and she picked it up in my voice. Then she said that they all sat down to watch Finding Nemo and it just wasn't the same. I'd told her that we were about to watch it too and we burst out crying. Women! We then began quoting lines from the darn movie!!! Yes, I am 23 and yes my Mother is a 40 something. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Any way, what else...
Ron and I have been going through a major strain. It really blows to be honest. While I was in Florida I didn't have many friends that inspired me to hang out with them or go out. I've always been a homebody but I became a hermit. I had all the time in the world to sit and wait for him to come and go offline as he pleased. Well, that's all changed and he feels like he's being slighted. We get to talk randomly when I have a few moments. If we're to be honest the only thing that's changed is the roles. Whereas he would only have sporadic moments to chat me up, I'm now the one w/ the truncated window of time for convos. He worries that I am changing, but I'm not, I'm only thriving once again. He asks if he'd fit into my life now that I am home and living freely. Of course he would. If he were here in the flesh I'd still go and hang out with friends, work 40+ hours a week and still have time for him. It's all about balance and compromise. I'm just not sure if either of us is willing to compromise fully. He speaks a lot of truths in his blog. I feel that once we're face to face we'll know if what we have is truly worth fighting for or if it was just something we got caught up with in the moment. Until our meet, I think it's too time consuming to fret over the 'what ifs' and 'what could be'.
On the homefront, the search is still in progress. We've put a few apps. in we're waiting to see which one(s) stick. Law and I are ready to go while Marciece seems to have slipped off the face of the Earth. He and I finished something that was started over six years ago and while I'm not as emotional as I thought I would be, he just might be. I thought once we got that out of the way we could co-exist happily and not have to wonder or feel the tension in the air. It is exactly how I feel, but as usual, I have no clue as to what he's feeling. Actually, I have some assumptions which I am sure are right on point, but we'll leave that alone for now.
My Godson is the most yumalicious thing in the whole world. I'm not just saying that because he's mine either. Look for yourself! I think I have a link to my photos in the "Links" section. It's under "Finally Home" album. I'm also in there as well as Ida, Lisa, Marciece, and Virgil.
That's all for now folks. I love you and miss you guys sooo much. Mami, Papi, Vero, Estevie, and Bastian-Y'all are the axis that keeps my world spinning. God bless you all!!!!

Love, Nana
Pressed by a Fairie // 7:51 PM




Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Well, time is moving rather quickly on me. I should be in my own place by the end of the month. I met w/ Law yesterday and we discussed living arrangements. He seems to be a little hesitant to leave his current roommate, so it just might end up being Lady and the Beast. I've spent all morning looking into duplexes and 2-3 bdrm. apts. It's really hard to find 2 bdrm. apts. that have the rooms on opposite ends. I love the guy, but I don't want to share a wall with him or have to walk by his door to get to mine and vice versa (if you catch my drift). I'm off today and tomorrow. I think Marciece and I are going to do dinner at PF Changs (where Law works) cause he's on tonight. We'll see. At some point I have to make my way over to Virgil's house and say hello to him and his family. His daughter is just so dang cute! I have pics, but I can't upload them on this pc. Grrrrrrrr!!!! I'll also put in a visit and probably stay the night at Lisa's so I can see my lovely Daylan James. Work is going well. Getting my 40 in so I am good. Come Sept. hours will be sliced because it's a drop in tourists so...I have something else already lined up. I'll be salary too so its perfect (keep fingers crossed please) LOL!!! Well, I am off to the land of water and soap and then off to get into something. I love you guys and miss you dearly!!! Stay up.

Oh wait, I saw Wedding Crashers last night (FINALLY) with Ida. OMG, the movie is freaking HILARIOUS!!!! I'm going to try and see it again either tonight or tomorrow (for free (great to know people who know people)). Not even half way through the movie I was like, 'I'mma have to buy this on dvd!!!' Ciece and I were supposed to see The Bad News Bears on Sunday before I went into work, but we got tied up doing other things ... so that's still on the to do list. Before I came out here I made a "Must See" movie list. I made it with Marciece in mind to be my movie buddy since one of his great friends is a manager at a theater.

~Lady Musiq~
Pressed by a Fairie // 3:42 PM