Monday, August 25, 2008
Freedom Current mood: romantic Category: Romance and Relationships His love covers me like a second skin. Its protection from the storms life will bring our way and it's the salve applied afterwards that will be life sustaining. Like a Superwoman Cape, his love surrounds me when I am away from home-away from him. It allows me the freedom to be me in my purest form. I leave my home with my hair stuffed in a cap, ashy knees, and stubbly legs and it doesn't phase me one bit. The best part of it all is that it doesn't phase him either!
His love is better than any bronzer out there right now ladies…the glow that radiates through me is so powerful that people have made comments about it. My smile is infectious in that both men and women are afflicted. They say my eyes damn near twinkle and my smile is deer-in-the-headlights blinding. Really? Really?
I'm baffled when they ask, what's the secret?
Truth is, I take (3) Doses of My Husband a day:
The first is a healthy dose of My Husband in the morning-now sometimes it goes down smooth and other times it's as bitter as hot beer, but its not something you can skip otherwise you may not enjoy your next (2) doses!
The next is just a quick dose of My Husband-this is usually a pick-me-upper in the middle of the day -an escape from the monotony of the day. To make it to the next dose and the end of the day this dose must not be skipped either!
The last dose of My Husband is the best dose of the day-this is usually the dose that helps get the worries off of your mind. You can put your feet up and just unwind and this dose will take care of you until the morning…
…And then it's time to do it all over again.
Signed,
Truly, Madly, Deeply, Dangerously in Love
April 09, 2009Current Mood: ContentCategory: Romance and Relationships Boy did the year start of with a bang!!! The MLK march saw its biggest turn out (and best weather day) ever, Obama took the white house, and we celebrated ONE full year of marriage. Majie turned 3 and she's as smart as can be. I abso adore her!
Ileana
Pressed by a Fairie // 7:02 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Heavy Subject Matter Current mood: stressed Category: Life"Just because the pounds went away ... doesn't mean any of the body complexes went away."
- Josh Peck from Nickelodeon's Josh & Drake who lost over 100lbs.
For the last year and a half I've been trying to explain that to people! I never thought to put it quite like that and its such a simple statement.
I went from 242 lbs. to my current weight of 136 lbs. Everyone who sees me says the same thing, "Wow, you look great!" In my head I start thinking of the things that could use some work and some times I voice those feelings. The usual response is a scoff and a light, "Oh please..." which only frustrates the shit out of me but has opened my eyes to other things. Yes, I lost over 100 lbs., but what do you think happens to your skin when you lose that much weight so quickly? My arms are loose and flabby and even with working them out they don't seem to be tightening up (although when I flex there's a lil suttin suttin there LOL). Too many years full of extra weight. I have the same problem with my thighs. I JUST recently began wearing tanks and sleeveless shirts in public (depends on where I'm going) and I won't wear shorts that hit higher than just above the knee for the same reason. I won't even get started on how my belly looks with its 9 inch scar and loose skin. The truth is that just because someone is 150 lbs or less doesn't mean they're 100% happy with themselves. It doesn't mean they don't have problem areas or things they'd like to improve on. No one should just blow off someone's feelings because they don't have the same (weight) problems. The GREAT thing is that we can use those things people confide in us to help motivate one another to be the best ME/YOU/HER/ HIM we can be.
Bottom line is that at 242 lbs. my focus was getting down to a healthier weight, but I didn't put much effort into it. As long as there were places for me to shop, losing weight wasn't too high on my list. Crohn's Disease and being hospitalized almost every 3-4 months for the first 2 years of my disease is what pushed my weight down. Then I had to change they way I ate and what I ate which helped me get rid of even more weight. I can honestly say that if I didn't HAVE to eat properly (which I still don't do 100% of the time), I'd be back in size 16/18 real quick. As it is, I currently fluxuate between 132 lbs. & 146 lbs. That's almost 20 lbs!!! That's alot of fucking weight and ppl say, "so what, you wear it well" or "you look fine", but I don't feel fine. My knees start to hurt, my lower back pain return, and NONE of my clothes fit properly. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I may be a size 8 but a plus-size 18 lives inside of me...
If you got this far, I thank you and hope you found something to take away from this little rant.
Ileana
Pressed by a Fairie // 7:01 PM
Monday, June 02, 2008
What’s it Like...? Current mood: a little downCategory: Life I hurt everytime he leaves. I can't administer aid to this wound. There's no topical ointment that can be applied for it's the worst kind of pain. It's internal. It's deep within my soul where he lives. Where he's taken over...
I wait for him at the airport like a child awaiting St. Nick and when I see him, when our eyes lock, the world and everyone in it fades away. There is only him. He smiles at me and I release the pent up breath I didn't realize I was holding. My feet begin to cut a path through the crowd of people, they know their way home. My body is vibrating-it's a wonder I can walk at all. Then like that, he's in front of me, pulling me into him and I relax. I breathe him in and every nerve in body is calmed. It's Heaven when I am picking him up...
I drag my feet when the time begins to draw near. I want to absorb as much time with him because our time is drawing to a close. My heart aches with each item he places in his suitcase. We have a 5 hour trip ahead of us, these last few hours will have to last us the next three months. He's offered to drive so I hop in the truck and put his leaving on the back burner. We talk, we laugh, we hold on to each other in silence. We've created some memories that will one day make us laugh hysterically and embarrass the hell out of our kids, but it's what we do. We arrive at the airport and suddenly I can't breathe again. My hearing starts to fade out and the only thing I can hear is my heart beating. This is it. We exit the truck and I immediately reach for his bags. Anything I can do to keep from looking at him. Anything to keep my mind occupied. Anything to avoid breaking down. It's Hell when I am dropping him off...Monday, June 02, 2008
Current Mood: Contemplative Category: Blogging
...so I woke up this morning and silently wished my husband a Happy 5 months married. Then I began to think about our history and our future and I came to this conclusion:
Since Chris and I only dated for 4 months, EIGHT years ago, we have a pretty solid chance of seeing this thing through to the "...'til death do us part..." thingy. We have a solid foundation. We've been friends for 8 years. We shared some of our darkests moments and we've celebrated each other's highs (not like that!). We can stand to be around one another for an extended period of time w/o wanting to kill the other person (usually =) ) Really though, we're JUST now getting to go out on dates, leave silly messages, have minor disagreements that sometimes (alot of time) turn into heated debates...we're learning eachother. And since we are just learning, everything we do and experience is new and fresh. We view ourselves as a couple who is a bit off of the beaten path and we like it like that. Maybe its not so much that we're odd, maybe we've really got this figured out...is that even possible?...
Eh, just felt like writing. If you got this far, THANKS =)
Mrs. Brazil
Pressed by a Fairie // 6:59 PM
I forgot all about my original blog spot. I am going to attempt to update this all in a few shots. So bear with me, some of these may turn out very long...but they're two in one...
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Marriage Quotes... Current mood: loved Category: Romance and RelationshipsThose of you who know me best know that I have a few notebooks filled with quotes on topics from friendship to love to heartbreak and life in general...today I decided to look for quotes that pertain to marriage and here are the ones I will be adding to my new quote book...please enjoy.
"In marriage we marry a mystery, an other, a counterpart. In a sense the person we marry is a stranger about whom we have a magnificent hunch. The person we choose to marry is someone we love, but his depths, her intimate intricacies - we will come to know only in the long unraveling of time. We know enough about our beloved to know that we love him, to imagine that, as time goes on, we will come to enjoy her even more, become even more of ourselves in her presence. To our knowledge we add our willingness to embark on the journey of getting to know him, of coming to see her, even so wonderfully more.Swept up by attraction, attention, fantasy, hope, and a certain happy measure of recognition, we agree to come together for the mysterious future, to see where the journey will take us. This companionship on life's journey is the hallmark of marriage, its natural province, its sweetest and most primal gift.In promising always, we promise each other time. We promise to exercise our love, to stretch it large enough to embrace the unforeseen realities of the future. We promise to learn to love beyond the level of our instincts and inclinations, to love in foul weather as well as good, In hard times as well as when we are exhilarated by the pleasures of romance.We change because of these promises. We shape ourselves according to them; we live in their midst and live differently because of them. We feel protected because of them. We try some things and resist trying others because, having promised, we feel secure. Marriage, the bond, makes us free to see, to be, to love. Our souls are protected; our hearts have come home."Daphne Rose Kingma
"When one finds a worthy wife, her value is far beyond pearls. Her husband entrusting his heart to her, has an unfailing prize." Proverbs 31:10-11
"Two hearts that have been merged is marriage; two souls that have been merged is fate." Source Unknown
"Marriage may be made in heaven, but the maintenance must be done on earth." Source Unknown
"Love me without fear. Trust me without wondering.Love me without restrictions.Want me without demand. Accept me how I am. A love like that, will be eternal!" Source Unknown
"Marriage is made in heaven, but so is thunder and lightning."Anonymous
"As our Pastor stated at the wedding ceremony: 'Don't ever stop dating your wife.' and 'Don't ever stop flirting with your husband.'" Pastor Kochel
"I want you around in the morning and I want to know you're legally required to be there." Michelle Pfiefer in the movie, "Up Close and Personal"
"A man sees himself through the eyes of the women he loves." Source Unknown
"The grass is not greener on the other side, you just have to water your own." Source Unknown
"A successful marriage requires fallings in love many times, always with the same person." Source Unknown
"The challenge in love is not igniting the flame, but in keeping the flame burning through the darkest times." Source Unknown
"Missing you is my hobby, caring for you is my job, making you happy is my duty, and loving you is my life." Source Unknown
"It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages." Friedrich Nietzsche
"'Where's home for you?' a stranger asked a fellow traveler. 'Wherever she is,' came the reply, as the man pointed at his wife." Source Unknown
"I would rather fight with you than make love to anyone else." from the movie The Wedding Date
"What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined together to strengthen each other in all labour, to minister to each other in all sorrow, to share with each other in all gladness, to be one with each other in the silent unspoken memories." George Elliot
"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more; that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds." from the The Notebook
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
Just feel like writing... Current mood: vibrant Category: Romance and Relationships ...not sure about what but here goes...
He gets me. He truly understands me and where I’m coming from. Even the things I do and say that irk the shit out of him are okay because he loves me. He loves me simply because I love him. That’s the best part of us. The easy acceptance and open communication. Knowing that no matter what either of us does or says the other person will not walk away. That we’ll stay and we’ll listen and we’ll watch and we’ll continue to love one another. We understand that hard times will come. The purpose will be to strengthen our bond. We know that we’ll have moments of miscommunication that may test us and push us to our limits, but without them we’ll not be able to appreciate all that is wonderful in our life.
I can’t remember a time when I looked forward to being a mom; not just having a baby, but having Chris’ baby. The joy and anticipation I have for that moment is beyond measure...I think my great friend Laura-Jean can be credited with giving me or rather with showing me how wonderful and exciting a new life can be. Her joy and enthusiasm could make anyone yearn to experience motherhood. Best wishes and kudos to you Mrs. Bowers.
He’s silly, argumentative, smart, passionate, aggravating, playful, charming, stubborn, peaceful, loyal, protective, adventurous, loving, easy-going, mischievous, talkative, affectionate, chivalrous, comedic, witty, sensitive, intuitive...the list is endless really. Every day is something new with him. Every day I learn something new about myself through him. Finally, my mate is with my soul.
(Concluded: 12:21 AM) Now I can add a category...
Pressed by a Fairie // 6:51 PM
